‘Tis the season when we writers get neurotic.
You know what I mean. We pause under the mistletoe, or beside the warm embers in the hearth, or while imbibing wine and good cheer and ask ourselves, “What did I write this last year, and why isn’t it enough?”
Sure, there are you disciplined, successful writers who could pull out a list of what you’ve written and what you’ve seen published, to say nothing of the hot irons you’ve got in the literary fire for 2015.
But when I cast my gaze over the previous twelve months, all I can think is, why didn’t I finish polishing my two Charity MacCay novels? Why didn’t I finish that offbeat scifi novel I started just for fun? Why haven’t I finished the screenplay, never mind that I just started it in October?
Some of you may remember that a couple Christmas holidays ago I pretty much swore off writing. Well, that resolution fell off the wagon. But in some ways I did stop writing, because ever since then I haven’t set a single writing deadline. I have little faith in my writing and especially in my get-it-published ability. And since I have scant free time I’ve even found myself resenting having to spend it on writing.
But you know how it goes, don’t you? Just when you think you’ve given up the literary ghost, the urge to finish telling a certain story, to find out what happens to your characters, to get your novel into some kind of print so that a couple friends and maybe a stranger or two will read it—that urge comes over you like an addiction and you find yourself at the keyboard and typing away.
This season, things are a little different for me. I’m pretty much resolved to finish that screenplay soon. I’m writing an essay-length non-fiction piece. I’ve even figured out what to do in the sci-fi story. And Charity will be in print in 2015. And that’s that. If I never write another story, I can live with myself. But I do have to finish what I’ve started or I’ll go crazy.
This will be my last post until January. I hope to see you back here, and I really hope you have a happy, healthy, and peaceful holiday season that’s full of love and other good stuff.
Take care. And please tell me about your own writing plans.